Saturday, July 25, 2015

Longest two months...

Oh hello there! HAHAHAHA

It's been's been a long time since I find myself in my quiet old self, finding solace in writing down the feels over the weekend but today's post will be from one of the longest months of my life so far and I'll tell you why. waeyo!?!?

Let me begin by sharing that I just got a new job! That's maybe why I forced myself from posting pictures of my former officemates from down down below to give you the right pacing you deserve. Anyway, who am I talking to? Hahahaha Going back, I'm now the Citibanker as they say, where working late is a normal thing as I deserved this because I wanted this from happening anyway. Waaaaaahhh On a serious note, everyday is quite a struggle because really it is. I'm on an everyday OT plus I'm not sure if I can really see myself lasting 6 months or more as you know I'm not the one who just endures the "hard work" as it makes life harder that its normally is. Maybe that's why I feel the pressure at work and most times merely doing my part which is I find not that fulfilling until I find myself going through my notes, breaking down the infos they gave me into pieces so I can somehow catch up. Because just a disclaimer, when you had the background of the work and you were hired for it (obviously) you really are expected to deliver and that's normal but frightening at some point in my case as we all know I tend not to seek help or firing questions when I can't connect the dots yet on my head. So there, I learned through mistakes and see myself dumbfounded everytime unusual things happen. The work I'm in is really chaotic and I can say I'm always weighing requests from both clients and the people within the bank I'm working as it's just chaotic like that.

But that's not all. What made me changed my attitude towards work is a process of acceptance. It's by accepting that you have to come to work at 9 and go out by 8pm or beyond. Imagine this happening everyday in my first 2 months made me stressed to the point of giving up but it changed as I prayed real hard to reached this desire of challenging myself from being able to function as cool as I can be. Well for adults they call it working professionally. It's not that people in there don't have the choice because if others from competing banks get to see the people I've come to know here they would be amazed by how passionate, dedicated and proactive they are to finish a day with still smiles on their faces. I mean it is always a long day at the bank but it speeds up because we're all busy as a bee.They all are aware of me struggling in those weeks because I get to speak up my mind now and I'm just that good at being indifferent whenever I make mistakes but still I do believe in those hard days that these will all be worth the deep breath and long faces every waking time going to work because the progress (naks!) and the difference from the way I see it now shows. I'm no longer finding myself going to F21 just to relieve myself from all the stress I got the whole day or the feeling of visiting the salon thinking what to do in there when I just changed my hair color last week and got my nails painted just recently. Like really? Every weekend I wish to go home and see my family but afraid that I might not go back to work after spending quality time with them. I must say those times were the hardest because I have seen myself way different from how I was back as Specialist, from one of the pioneer batch in FX to the strange trying hard Officer that I am now but it made sense to me, that learning is a neverending thing and it's way more rewarding when things you've acquired and celebrated comes from hard work, self taught and grace from God above. Yesss that's what I've been upto those longest two months... I was always out for a shop. HAHAHAHA!  Anywho, it's been reasonably awakening and well for me worth the share. I always want to thank my siblings, friends and parents for just always answering my calls when I just feel like I wanted to awol from work. HAHAHA Thanks for the inspiration TED TALKS, Robin Sharma, Make-up Youtubers, Steve Job's speech on replay and Bro. Alvin Barcelona for I always found myself at peace whenever I go to The Feast.

My first time getting off work ALONE at 11pm.

Because I just aged twice as fast as before.

Went hiking for 14 K I L O M E T E R S to see the beautiful disaster in Mt. Pinatubo.
Depended on this with former officemates.
Misses home that's why~
I'm not at all sorry for the drama when I know I just have one problem to deal with and others have a lot more but one thing is for sure I'll be keeping the lessons in mind so when it's my turn facing the bigger ones I can truly say, I've been this before and the answer is the same.

Who has found the meaning,
Miss Piggy (---.----)\/

Friday, June 12, 2015

When in State Street~

Because I think I never thanked these people enough for putting up with a random Specialist that is me!

Thank you ICS Manila for just about everything! For the laughters we shared almost all the time, for the food of course that remained hidden to the hawkeyes of kuya guards, for being so half drinking buddies, half officemates to me. Thanks for the memories in those 1 year and 7 months! Love you all dorky team of ICS!

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

I don't understand.

I actually have something far more important to do right now but...

1. I dont understand why there's always a person in a group of chatting people who raises their voice just to let his/her story be told first. I will no longer say heard because I defenitely did.

2. I dont understand why people watches a show or a celebrity on tv whom/which they dont like in the first place. Then they will rant on SNS as if they were paid to bash.

3. I dont understand why there are existing people who hates another person just by their mere existence. Like, you sure you're someone worthy as well to be called human when you cant even open your mind to get to know the other person you *just hate?

4. I dont understand why kentucky original fried chicken is always smaller than the hot and spicy one?

5. I dont understand why you have to say "sorry" or "excuse me" when passing by a group of people talking when you will and you mean to interrupt their conversation. I still dont find it courteous.

6. I dont understand where does my *hatsing goes after it didn't went out of my nose.

7. I dont understand why the people who pisses you off are the people whom you're being careful not to hurt or get mad at. Then will result to blaming your ownself for even thinking of getting mad or you try hard not to let it show that you're truly about to fire up.

8. I dont understand why there's no survey yet about "how people reacts on heavy rains (or even just a plain, simple rain) in metro manila". Because I'm curious as to why the roads are always immovable when we all know rain's gonna stop. So might as well wait for their turn to get home, those who are leaving for work should be the ones to get off first right? See my point?

9. I dont understand why people in love are the most immature people I know. Always the attention seeker. I think they dont deserve or arent ready for it yet. Hahaha kidding!!!

10. I dont understand why people (ladies in particular) typed in "HAHA" or say "I dont care" when you know from the tone of their comments or voice thay they are affected, hurt and sensitive about the issue.

11. I dont understand why there are friends who pushes you to be in a relationship but when you got yourself into it they'll find glitches, holes and cracks to break you off. Hmnnn... something isn't right.

12. I dont understand why you get mad at people who ignores you or who remains silent when you know you'll be treating their words as unsolicited advice.

13. I dont understand why I didnt date the guy I seriously think is the one.

14. I dont understand why I'm having all these misunderstandings and making them bug my day when I know I dont have all the time in the world to care about all these *sensitivities! HMP! (See #10)


Sunday, March 15, 2015


This isn't part of my bucket list but there you have it folks, tucked-in-pajamas now turned three and has 10k views and so I'm the happiest!

Here's what I did to celebrate the day... #March3EST