Sunday, November 15, 2015

November Q&A Portion!

And so before I begin, foolish heart~ I feel like I should come with a disclaimer that says...

This series of Q&A may be super affectionate and may speak in sarcasm OFTEN. And all emotional investments are subject to mood swings. Approach with caution. And fruit salad. 

1. What decision are you glad you made? Attending feast as a non-negotiable habit every Sunday!

2. Share some good advise. Stay sincere because believe me, it's way easier to be true than to act as someone else.

3. What occupied your mind today? To be productive!

4. What was the best conversation you had today? With my "brave girls", Nysh and Dhet earlier! We need some catching up to do since we've been very busy with our respective lives while apart for like, months with no travels or simple get together. Reality hits us but we are truly grateful it will caused us to serious thinking and life changing decisions we will soon be making! Yey!
The Sisters at the Feast!
The parody! Nice try Nadz, Kath and Liza! HAHAHA 
5. Do you love your job? Hmmm... Perhaps like but not love. I like it when my day just went well but disgusted and dismayed if it turned out hellish.

6. If you could get rid of one of your habits, what would it be? Lazing around when I should be doing that planned idea in my head.

7. List 5 things you wish you had with you today? (1)Fries that my roommate is munching now. (2)New laptop for I just need a reliable Microsoft apps and google chrome that don't usually crush. (3)Coffee shake refill. (4)AC. (5)How about my house so I can access my whole cozy and dark room for myself! Hmnn~~~ brilliant!

8. What achievement are you the most proud of? I know this will sound cheesy but it would be my failures. To be specific, it would be the losses I made last year which includes lovelife na din. HAHAHA

9. What gadgets do use today? My bipolar lappy! My iphone 4s that I only got to use around 20 mins after unplugging from the charger. Also my e-fan, I believe it counts!
10. What shocked you? That Iced Coffee with WHISKEY I naively ordered in a coffee shop near my dorm. I won't be fooled next time and plans not to come again ever kasi naman I can't feel their aircon. Hmmm so di naman pala issue yung whiskey sa kape nya! Pabebe!

11. What was the last lie you told? To myself, that I can't fall in love while I'm about to move to a considerably far place. :'( Owkeyyy!

12. What's your favorite cuisine? I would say Korean. But anything would do. HAHAHA

13. What do you have too much of? My answer would be very objective but I feel like I have too much clothes now that I can only hoard them in my luggage. Partly to blame is my toxic work that kept me from shopping for more to distress. :'(

14. What do you want to tell yourself in one year? Good or bad may come at you but for sure you'll remain true! Tsar!

15. What is your greatest strength? That I am weird. Seriously, I misspelled weird again to *wierd! Kaloka! Sige na nga, elaborate ko naman, because I consider this as my ultimate source of drive after my faith or "the feeling blessed at the moment"; this just makes me more me! I simply just release myself into the wilderness of all that's happening kaya siguro feel ko lang to validate my thoughts because I myself needs some explanation as to why I reacted this way mga ganern~ kaya malabo! Wag na! Mobon na tayo! 

16. Other than your clothes, what was with you the majority of the day? My A3 Samsung phone! Youtube pa more!

17. What's your guilty pleasure? Late night TV series marathon.

18. What is bothering you? My hell work!

19. What inspires you? Aside from my hardworking parents when I think of my siblings who have managed to be good parents to their kids and at the same time be equally excellent at their respective fields, my Ate Yen being the Law student and my younger brother, Jimboy being the Team Supervisor that he is now. So I was like... WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE!?? I only have my own self to manage but still I'm lacking that drive to really outdo my past self.

20. What impression did you make in front of others today? That I'm sort of gloomy because of the aftermath from the pressure at work but can remain silly and positive about it.

21. What did you give up on today? Goodbye my 8 to 6 hours sleep!

22. How did you play today? Fair.

23. How do you know? Kasi wala naman nagalit sa'kin? Can't think of anything to answer the question actually~

24. Name the last three things you used today? Coffee shake straw and its cup and cover. bow!

25. What sound do you hate hearing? In awhile, my alarm.

26. Do you feel appreciated? YES! (malakas kutob ko!)

27. My body is... covered with oil before my clothes because I just had a Swedish massage at the spa where I had my membership for almost a year now. HAHAHA

28. Today I had too much... caffeine. 

29. What worries you? My future. Isn't that too obvious! kebs!

30. What did you get to do today? In general, my Sunday has been very productive because I get to send out my spoiled clothes to the Laundry shop; I was able to wash my undies (nagiging favorite ko ng topic!); Of course I went to the Feast with my friends and also got to catch up over our simple food cravings for Liempo. Also that I was able to share with them my worries and plans. And lastly, because I ended up blessed the entire week so I am just pouring out my feelings through here. Love you weekend!

Lost and so searching,
Miss Piggy

Thursday, November 12, 2015

The Thursday Currently, Wave1

Currently, I am starting out a series of future blog posts with the title: "The (Insert day today) Currently" which is inspired from the blog posts of Yaya Dub a.k.a. karibal ko kay Alden. Woot! Ekmyuski po! Allow me guys to let you know why I have this thursday all to myself and that I'm not in my forced laborer mood. HAHAHA


Reading. Pages of blog posts from various sites that would let me bring my feet closer to a place where my heart will be tried and tested and my mind will be blown. 

Writing. I am busy jotting down notes on twitter, most of them are my excessive rants over my toxic work and some just my random thoughts of anything that's nakakakilig all to remind myself of forever. HAHAHA Never mind!

Thinking. I am thinking of finishing this post before I go to the CR because I just can't leave my belongings on top of this table and hope for the best while I release the water in my puson

Smelling.  Nothing.

Wishing. To have a productive day still ahead and to be able to face tomorrow with a different mindset as you should know that I just took my leave of absence from work today without any notice to my boss and just sent a plain text to my back-up that I can't make it today. And gladly she replied "okies :)" for I think she most probably know why.

Hoping. I can finish this up before I pee on my shorts!

Wearing. A purple t-shirt with a print that says, "I am there in 10 minutes..." which I just bought last night after I felt down and stressed at work. Which goes to say, I haven't washed this yet and before you can say you're just ok with it (hoping!) I paired it with my spoiled shorts which I just wore last Sunday. HIHIHI ��

Loving. Today because I was able to rest and at the same time hanged out with my friends over chicken and beer.

Wanting. I've been wanting to go on a vacation to Bikol but I also want to attend the Kerygma Con. this coming Nov. 19-22.

Needing. Good sleep and healthy food because I just ate all that's unhealthy today though.

Feeling. Overall satisfied with today's spontaneity with friends and by myself.

Time to pee for me everyone! Bye! 

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Took a while...

1. The bra that gets deformed and stained will always make you sigh whenever you wear them. This has always been the case so an honest mistake ever since I went on my own which means I had no choice but to wash my own undies (don't judge me yet! I still have a lot of darker secrets! Bwahahahaha!) and apparently I'm not good with estimates (if this will get stained by another clothing if i mixed them into one washing bin) because I just have this unmanageable beliefs for seeking meanings to life and by that I mean, there is always a reason why my undies are not in the same form and color as before. If you know what'am sayin! BUT IF YOU DON'T! It's ok. Because there's no deep meaning behind. Hahaha Lesson that I just recently adapt to my practical life is to buy undies with the same color, form and well bought them all at same time! So I have new ones! Welcome my supporters for liiiiiiifeeee!!! I'll handle you with care now so please take good care of mine?! Hahahaha Oweeeee~

2. "Your bag defines who you are. Your bag is who you are." It was not a bad quote from the movie #EtiquetteForMistresses it is actually the truth. Your bag is a statement of who you are or your bag is WHO YOU ARE! Hahahaha been repeating the exact same lines but yes this is very true with my choices of bags. Because there's this one time I bought a tote bag in uni days (uni means university,i just thought i need some explaining to do: ) so I tag along a good friend to help me find a bag that I can find myself in it (not literally! Scary thoughts coming in!!!) so I found one but a month after I gave it to my cousin. I realized back then that it wasn't the one - that I just purchased the bag out of pressure because I am with a friend and i don't want our efforts be put to waste and take note that was from my own savings so I was really thinking of the best! Unluckily, I kept repeating that mistake ever since then... bought a bag gave it to another cousin for a reason that I can afford to buy them now. Then just recently, I bought the most expensive cross bag I will ever have I supposed but I will soon let it go and plan to give it to my mom just because it is so big for me to manage. So I am this sad because I have missed to yearn for that dream bag before handing out my debit card. Now, I am using my 400php worth bag which I bought as souvenir from my last year's visit in Korea. Originally it has straps as cross body bag but since I used to bring with me huge bottle water and some stuff it is now slowly decaying. Ok I'm just overreacting but now that I've learned the lesson and couldn't afford to waste a minute and money not having that heavy duty "leather backpack" I need for my brittle back... I'm waiting for the best bag to define who I really am! See I need a bag to let me be known to the world! Hahahha

3. 8 GLASSES OF WATER IS WHAT WE NEED! Reason behind is something that is not hidden to us all, we basically been reminded about this since we were in kindergarten and that truth remains the same and as a matter of fact forever. We all need to survive with water in our body as it's made of 75% water and not soda or liquor. Truth is my migraine is now bugging my days and nights lately that the longest hours of attack lasted for 8 fishing hours! It was like I should have get paid for that long hours of suffering that all I can do was to squeeze my head and throw up (not a party folks!) and it wasn't fun at all. So starting today I am now in my serious goal to completing that 8 glasses of water in a day because someone from the internet reminded me of how can I stop my body from deteriorating and that water will be the safest and easiest way to keep me going.

4. I'm not a street smart but let's remember I never fail to be a weirdo. Okey na sakin yun! I wish I am but becoming one would have been painful. Because most probably the ones who have become one were the ones who have been fooled or been lied to the most and that explained why protecting oneself from some unlucky events and those criminal minds is some beneficial trait one must have in this can be cruel world. But I won't be wishing for that trait if I'll be asked in my 2nd life because I find the most joy and peace whenever I just let things be and though sad that you have just been used or something, still it isn't me who made that bad decision. But try not to be in the same situation again at least for a year. This goes by saying, learn it the hard way. Accept that there are people unlike you and that we can be bad at times.

5. Invest on the things that lasts. Need me to say more?!?

6. Goal is to be able to take care of my parents when I am ready; to give back because they just never held back when it comes to us.

7. Don't get out of the car just because you're lost. 

8. When someone made their feelings known to you, you start to look at them differently then it could also be true if it's the other way around. Hmmnnn... So might as well say it before you start moving on. Malay mo naman~

Saturday, July 25, 2015

Longest two months...

Oh hello there! HAHAHAHA

It's been a long time since I have found myself in my quiet old self, finding solace in writing down the feels over the weekend but today's post will be from one of the longest months of my life so far and I'll tell you why. waeyo!?!?

Let me begin by sharing that I just got a new job! That's maybe why I forced myself from posting pictures of my former officemates from down down below to give you the right pacing you deserve. Anyway, who am I talking to? Hahahaha Going back, I'm now the Citibanker as they say, where working late is a normal thing as I deserved this because I wanted this from happening anyway. Waaaaaahhh On a serious note, everyday is quite a struggle because really it is. I'm on an everyday OT plus I'm not sure if I can really see myself lasting 6 months or more as you know I'm not the one who just endures the "hard work" as it makes life harder that its normally is. Maybe that's why I feel the pressure at work and most times merely doing my part which is I find not that fulfilling until I find myself going through my notes, breaking down the infos they gave me into pieces so I can somehow catch up. Because just a disclaimer, when you had the background of the work and you were hired for it (obviously) you really are expected to deliver and that's normal but frightening at some point in my case as we all know I tend not to seek help or firing questions when I can't connect the dots yet on my head. So there, I learned through mistakes and see myself dumbfounded everytime unusual things happen. The work I'm in is really chaotic and I can say I'm always weighing requests from both clients and the people within the bank I'm working as it's just chaotic like that.

But that's not all. What made me changed my attitude towards work is a process of acceptance. It's by accepting that you have to come to work at 9 and go out by 8pm or beyond. Imagine this happening everyday in my first 2 months made me stressed to the point of giving up but it changed as I prayed real hard to reached this desire of challenging myself from being able to function as cool as I can be. Well for adults they call it working professionally. It's not that people in there don't have the choice because if others from competing banks get to see the people I've come to know here they would be amazed by how passionate, dedicated and proactive they are to finish a day with still smiles on their faces. I mean it is always a long day at the bank but it speeds up because we're all busy as a bee.They all are aware of me struggling in those weeks because I get to speak up my mind now and I'm just that good at being indifferent whenever I make mistakes but still I do believe in those hard days that these will all be worth the deep breath and long faces every waking time going to work because the progress (naks!) and the difference from the way I see it now shows. I'm no longer finding myself going to F21 just to relieve myself from all the stress I got the whole day or the feeling of visiting the salon thinking what to do in there when I just changed my hair color last week and got my nails painted just recently. Like really? Every weekend I wish to go home and see my family but afraid that I might not go back to work after spending quality time with them. I must say those times were the hardest because I have seen myself way different from how I was back as Specialist, from one of the pioneer batch in FX to the strange trying hard Officer that I am now but it made sense to me, that learning is a neverending thing and it's way more rewarding when things you've acquired and celebrated comes from hard work, self taught and grace from God above. Yesss that's what I've been upto those longest two months... I was always out for a shop. HAHAHAHA!  Anywho, it's been reasonably awakening and well for me worth the share. I always want to thank my siblings, friends and parents for just always answering my calls when I just feel like I wanted to awol from work. HAHAHA Thanks for the inspiration TED TALKS, Robin Sharma, Make-up Youtubers, Steve Job's speech on replay and Bro. Alvin Barcelona for I always found myself at peace whenever I go to The Feast.

My first time getting off work ALONE at 11pm.

Because I just aged twice as fast as before.

Went hiking for 14 K I L O M E T E R S to see the beautiful disaster in Mt. Pinatubo.
Depended on this with former officemates.
Misses home that's why~
I'm not at all sorry for the drama when I know I just have one problem to deal with and others have a lot more but one thing is for sure I'll be keeping the lessons in mind so when it's my turn facing the bigger ones I can truly say, I've been this before and the answer is the same.

Who has found the meaning,
Miss Piggy (---.----)\/