Saturday, July 5, 2014

To Jimboy.

To my only brother whom I can always count on for favors without asking something in return because in the family, I'm that person. ---.----\/ I'm writing to you this letter because I remembered the times you always give in because of my silly intentions. I'm teary eyed right now just so you know since I'm hardly there for you when i know you could have needed my help too. I'm sorry for the bad memories we had particularly the times I under estimated your abilities. The times I ignored your fever and didn't even care to give you food when you're in pain. Those times I abused my power as 11 months older than you that I even made your project with pictures smaller so to save money for the printing fee and my project to be well taken of because I'm the one using the pc rental back in grade school. I am very sorry for ruining your project. If I had known my selfish self before I could have corrected my bad habits since then. I'm feeling guilty just now. It took me 20 years to know my faults back in our home in San Felipe. I'm sorry for always doubting you. I admit I always been insecure because I was the least favorite kid so just to step up a little I've done such...

But everything is ok now between us. I am very lucky to have you as my little brother. You're a sensitive person who can cry at the touching stories and someone who crack jokes naturally. I am proud even that you really are an inspiration because of your consistency to show your care for family affairs and that's really some plus to your sincere character. Anyway, congratulations to your success at work. You just got promoted and we were all surprised by that aside from your American accent. May our good Lord keep blessing you all the time! And now that you have a family of your own, may you continue to be just as loving as you were to us to your wife and son, Jello.

Ate Misis is always here ready to back you up! I love you Jimboy! Let's make our parents feel more proud and blessed by the values and love for the things we already have. 

Your bad turned good sister,
Ate Misil. 

Why need to suffer for love?

Why me?!? This has been my regretful question as I've come to realize I was completely fooled by love or whatever strange feeling was that. And so before I continue I just think I have to say sorry for  what I'll be saying... I'm going to regret this for sure in the future but more of the petty side because I'll laugh about this soon. So there, I wish them good luck and hopefully I won't be seeing signs of them in our bldg. anymore! Like please just evaporate so I can live in peace again! They're just an eye sore and I'm not just saying this because I'm irritated by the thought they're two flirts flirting with each other and I just can't help not to be annoyed because just by the looks of it they are perfect earthlings binded by lustful intentions. Hooo~ I don't usually get irritated that easily but due to inevitable circumstances such this case then I'll just claim the right to be upset and be the bitter one in the story! Anyway, I will start not to care and decide  to move on... until signs of them won't be  a problem anymore. I'll leave them both behind my back that they can't even try to get near me ever! So bye and see me soon from a far when I give you a look behind my back. bwahahaha! 

And this will be the last time I'll succumbed to your disgust! Pwe! 

Sunday, April 20, 2014

New Friend Added

Happy Easter everyone! God has risen so I think I deserve some exclusive time with him before today ends. I am convinced that you will never leave me no matter what the world throws on me and so I’m pushing my hesitant self to open up and really put it in words.

Remember that guy Lord at work? He has a girlfriend now.

I know. I should just distant myself and I am still trying to do what exactly a friend should do. But can I just be honest and say how it really feels to be left by someone whom I thought could be the one? It happened so fast for them that I can only find myself hanged in the moment. I thought he’ll pursue me till we finally see it coming. Till I get tired of giving him the wrong signals. Until he gets sick of the casual talk… Until we realized what we have is love.

I once again blew the chance. And all I have gained is an unfinished business since we never had that real talk about us. I knew there’s something about your guilty gaze on me. I was just being cool but my disappointed self still reigns like how could you deliberately smile and tease me for four months when I was never the girl you like in the first place! This I know sounds bitter but I wish this will be the last time I’ll bring this up.

It upsets me that you fell for a cliché girl like everybody does. And it makes me sick thinking about the times I’ve doubted your sincerity and only to find out you were never that into me and that some find me delusional for even having the thoughts about us. I’m sorry for being this honest but this is just the first time my heart got broken by a guy who made me believe that he can save me from being alone on every occasion. You certainly broken every fantasy I had for us when you text me about it and not even finding a place in your brain that I am most probably be hurting deep down. Silly me, I even gave an advice to a friend that whatever mistake someone committed on you; you should always go with the side where there is hope for happiness, change and chances – thinking of you as an example before breaking me the news three weeks ago. I for one don’t easily give up on someone but the world taught me a lesson to let go of the person I once poured my heart into because I can’t be always falling for the wrong guy.

Funny it may seems but we had moments these days that we’re very careful with how people sees us. We’re like hiding something fishy every time we bump into each other. I’m not sure with soon events but for now I choose to forgive even if I hear no sorry. I’m not saying you’re the wrong alone here but why it has to be me? Why do I have to see you five times a week?!? I’ve been there and I hate going back and forth. I’ve shared enough for you to be extra careful but still you made history repeat.

There’s a lot of maybes’ again. Thinking now about the times we were there for each other- I still believe you came to prepare me for dating. You made me experience how it feels to be a lady next to a man whenever you visit me on 6’oclock habit. I’m such a kid myself so I call it quits. I now can only reminisce such times I give silly updates to friends about our progress; the unconventional time of your calls and texts; you letting me borrow your HD with updated episodes and songs in it, you surprised me with your taste in movies, music and that you also watch Korean dramas and you’re willing to watch my recommended series and you’ll download some for me though I know it may not be happening at all. You allowed me to get to know your whole family and bit of your story… you’re the most affected whenever you hear someone from my team disrespects me. You started to give me lessons on how things should be done; we even have bets and we also lend each other’s money at times. We even had plans of going on trip, that you’ll make up for my ruined valentine’s day because you were shy handing me toblerone because you know above all else that I discourage grand gestures that may result to making it such a big deal and I’ve realized I’ve missed the whole point of falling in love. I was never real to you 100%.

And though at some points you make my heart gone mad we managed to remain friends. I don’t know but like my advice to a friend, I choose where there’s more chance for happy endings. Some may see me naive for being cool and not cold to this guy but I have enough reasons to regard him as a friend. Plus, you don’t end friendships you just naturally being their old friend because of their new ones in their respective stages of life. I’ll give you the benefit of doubt because that’s what we are anyway so there will only be time to forgive because I hate regrets keep piling up. You make me all puzzled every time pal so I’ll make it easy for me too and let go of the butterflies in my stomach each time I see you until it will be some just friendship.


Dad! Where Are We Going?

Probably the only show I watch  without fail these days is “Dad! Where Are We Going?" a reality show that takes celebrity dads and their kids on an overnight camping trip...with no moms.

Now on their Season2!!! 

I watch whenever I feel like I need some intervention which came to this realization, that even though kids still have a lot to learn, just observing them can teach us many practical life lessons. There's brilliance in their simplicity. 

1. Girls love skinship the most with their parents. They feel secured and loved whenever their next to them.
2. Whereas little boys find their dads the coolest when they're playing with them. And playing would mean involving droplets of sweat!
3. Given more chance, kids these days also enjoy the company of nature and playing on the streets
4. At their early age, care to listen to their random talks because they have depth too.
5. Just like in the eyes of many, PDA among parents can be a trivial thing to your kids. Make it discreet so you won't be one in their random topics among friends or in your family gatherings.
6. Reading them books before lights off is  a good habit. It is also a preparatory for their schooling.
7. Let them experience house chores and make it a practice so they can have sense of responsibilty in and out the four corners of your home.
8. Keep your cool yow parents and same goes to their siblings. There'll be momentary tantrums and you know it will just pass in minutes so don't utter a word you might regret. 
9. Not like before, in raising good and happy kids make use of positive gestures and affirmations. You will not only build good relationship, you'll also empower their self esteem. 
10. Say I LOVE YOU. 
11. Engage them to lessons during summer so you can achieve the kid's full potential.
12. It's just right to be grateful so PRAY with them before bed time.
13. Appreciate the little details in their childhood for it will be short and you'll surely miss the fun times. Awww~ 

Plus, parents who tease their kids about their crushes are real cool parents!!! Woohooo! Also now, I am more convinced that every lesson they repeatedly embedded in our brains and restrictions they set – that all served a purpose. I didn't know that when I was little (yes! It did happen!) that's why I am still positive about this world's future! �� We can raise happy and good kids like what our parents did.

I'm the stage noona! I tweet like crazy and do screencaps of their innocent and sincere gestures~ See for yourself and get smitten by these kids!

This is Actor Lee Jang Hyuk's son, Junsu. The 5 yr old kid whom you'll find surprising each time. Always smiling and happy neh adeul, Junsu yah! 

The new leader of Season2 kids, Yoon Hoo! He's tung-tungeh like that but he's such an angel with maturity and listens very well to his cool appa, singer Yoon Minsoo "oppa". haha

His singer dad teach him in a very conventional and effective way to memorize stuff. I want to copy this trick too when I have to teach my soon kids in their stage plays or assignments~ yeeee!!!

Here's Scholar Song Jun. He's the ideal son, oppa, hyung and son-in-law you'll wish to have! This kid is the responsible first born of veteran Actor Song Dong Il. And there's Song Bin the brave kid of Season2! You'll see her dad in the way she fools around. That's for sure! 

The link http://kshownow.net/category/dad-where-are-you-going/ has a sub so non-koreans can also watch! (I highly recommend if you need a good laugh and a good time), you'll spot some differences/likeness from the 5 yr olds of today and the 5 yr old you back in the day~

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