Like a tetris awaiting its fall.

When I think of future this certain he pops out of my head. Not as a mere friend but someone we can place beside. I don’t know if I just didn't have depth thoughts about it but whatever is the case this person will be on my list.

We hardly know each other… but hey I won’t tell you much of this since this little secret might be leaked out. I just want to reiterate, that just in case you build fences in my premises you can be assured I won’t mind.

I guess this is a result of my awkward declines but I hope you can still manage to give it a try. But please not with manners this time since you know I already hope the worst for what could be ideal, best. (tsarrr!) So there you've just missed the text I’m composing for your could be reach out. I’m just being shy.

I don’t know why you’re being timid or it’s just my imagination insinuating your unusual gestures.

Well, anyway I just thought that we could be... you know!!! (--.----")\/

THAT awkward, guilty feeling after reading FIFTY SHADES OF GREY onwards~

It all started with my curiosity that led me to these uncomfortable thoughts of mine.

There were a few times of distraction to my daily vice.

That I already seldom open my netbook to watch my dose of variety shows.

There I found myself scrolling pages from my phone.

Then I realized this isn’t me in my comfort zone.

 I began to realize my unwelcomed awakened self on the pages I’ve come to read few weeks ago…

There were times of guilt I felt while reading them; times I already decided to quit and continue with my said-to-be legit, wholesome, humorous, very-me source of entertainment, Running Man. But then out of boredom I again scrolled some more, more to the point of finally finishing Book 1. Believe me it’s been quite a struggle for a non-bookish person like me to be on and head of the race with other book enthusiasts. I got a laugh from myself and few friends that yes I finally finished a “book”. Indeed, that was quite a Guinness.

And that proves I’m becoming fifty shades darker now, right? Hahahahayyysss. I was in a dazed and dumbfounded for a couple of times. But I tell you folks, books are written to be told thus I’m just doing so.

I’m not cleaning my hands off here. I’m just saying. Everyone’s story isn’t ordinary just like Mr. and Mrs. Grey’s. It was a smooth accident when I started the trilogy with the 3^rd book as my preamble to this well talked about erotic genre. It was a surprise after knowing that I was unintentionally planning to read it backwards. To tell you, truth been told on my chapter 3 of the last book and still thinking that this is ridiculously erotic if the author, EL James began with these entire chapters all at their peak. (Don’t be clueless! I know we know what we mean here.) So as told, I began. There I’ve realized why he’s called fifty little did I know all my fancies in my mistaken intro were far different from what it’s supposed to be. Ohhh… so Christian Grey isn’t fifty years old after all. Good Lord we have for Anastasia Steele. 

The awakened adult mind is now on its verge of its territory I guess. I began thinking of the unthinkable right after their “fifty” things. I’m not into all these yet so I MUST SAY, I STILL HAVE WITH ME MY SENSE OF TRANSPARENCY in all due fairness since some scenes and used terms are still unknown to my very world of thought. Believe me even just this once.

So there since my testimony is settled I must go back to where I just left. Heheheh I’m already Fifty Shades Darker so it’s getting more and more thrilling and lovelier. Bwahahha! Mr. Grey is legitimately admitted his piece!

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Read it if you want to no one here will be taking it against you. Go for what you think is edible, I mean good for you and lived for the moment. Use whatever you can excerpt from here as your advantage to anything that battles you~ Read and be knowledgeable at your own expense. 

And just like what he always promises, WE AIM TO PLEASE, MS. STEELE.

Still, Love is…

An aftermath of seen and unseen is just too much to bear.
Obscene movies are here and there.

It challenged both mind and the heart of anyone who have gotten. 

Experience is so little

But if opened thought is considered you’ll get a piece of everything.

It haunts, it destroys and it digs deeper than you thought it would.

It leaves you with sores you never thought existed along the course.

It just happened.

That was a mistake.
But that's just my guess.

Truth is behind its sense.

It fools one or two with a stone.

Who says its coincidence?

When it’s you,

You yourself took you there in the first place.

Accidents are forgiven

But coincidences as you wish don’t.

You meant it when you say HI and Hello

Then when somebody or for you just anybody got fooled

You took the chance to score

No waste time for it to fly

Go for the race and enjoy the deeds.

Aftermaths of the night doomed

Name, face, moles and signature unfolds

Treatments after is strange.

The one who believed loses.

The one played gained.

This isn’t you’re expected outcome.

Being shy and hesitant means goodbye.

This is a story of someone who just let it fly.

What have gotten into you?

What sort of thing did you do?

This isn’t your thing you knew.

I’m not good at this but allow me please

It is still love that leaves you speechless aftermath.

It is hard to find so don’t aim to rush

Think of this instead

When they say life is so short so as time,

You say time is gold so am I.

Don’t leave yourself overnight.

Things happen for a reason

But don’t you be an example.

Give it time, prayers then you’ll be found.

If someone will come it will knock before you knew it.

Let GOD be our guide.

Let love be that source of delight.

Don’t push yourself too hard because it won’t happen in a snap.

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i just made this "poem?". hihihi subject to unknown anxiety of what we called a lot*