Sunday, November 23, 2014

Things I've learned in 2014

After sitting back and thinking long and hard, a few points crossed my mind. I realized:

1. Boys are fishy. And women take the blame for feeding them the news but they really are the most curious of all species, I must say because after we shared something personal or should I say a “secret” that they can’t keep to their best bud they will tell it all anyway saying “I just heard this through someone” but hell yeah! I’m the closest girl-friend they know so who else right? In short, they go straight to the person involved or somewhat close enough then it will all go back to the speculative girl who just happened to be in the moment to share. You didn’t mean to blow off their friendship or relationship! You just happened to know and tell it to the wrong person and there goes my used feelings everyone.

2. Love isn’t love if you think about it. Okay. There were men in my life this year that made some knocking into my heart and thought for once one of them can actually be the one. But things do happen for a reason, my heart isn’t at peace at all though I know it’s been moved several times. Because I keep thinking and thinking of thoughts that just stops me from doing what I’m ought to do and that is to just love when I feel like it! But looking back I think I was and it just didn’t happen the way I imagined it to be. And there goes the acceptance which answers what went wrong question of some… that as time passed; I felt I didn't have enough time to be truly loving. It was a time when I worried every day about the future so I could not give it enough love. I think I could not continue a relationship where I was considerate of the other person because I was so overwhelmed by my worries.

3. Ask and you’ll be asked. I think I have to learn this still; I was almost in love that I didn’t bother asking. I stick with my fantasy of falling in love with no words required to express it and thought it will be enough. It ran for months thinking we’re both in the same page but seriously, nothing’s really for sure unless you pop the question. So there goes my regret, not that I’m still drawn to the guy I’ve been talking about the whole year but I think this becomes a personal struggle because I wasn’t that assured with myself if I can really risk it all. Oh gawddd! And this is not just true FOR romantic love; I believe if you care for someone you should always be asking out of concern. And so this gives me the reason why I didn’t dare to ask in the first place.

4. Don't over share. Again, I’m just being me and when I say “me”, I mean being too comfortable. When I am in the moment of anything good and bad someone can just wait for my childhood stories, little secrets and business affairs be told! I don’t find it wrong at that very moment but when the people who have heard of them will use it to my offense then there I start regretting being very detailed with my life. That sometimes I do get the feeling that I’m not being taken seriously because of this habit of sharing. Though I have battled this habit and just give them headlines still I feel like I’m over sharing and that it’s making me think that I’m surrounded with people who never really cared. Sorry for the blame though. I’m just freeing my horizons in this short story of mine. Hihi

5. There is what you call Natural order of things. Just like how sperms meet that it becomes the one writing now; how eggs gone through metamorphosis so we can adore the beautiful butterflies and how the water becomes edible when it all gone through all bodies of water... Seriously, I know all these way back in elementary but it just came to me now that no matter how “YOLO” we live it will still require time for things to make sense. Like how my trade s*cks right now. It is almost a year since I started and to be precise I do it every single day so why am I still lacking in skills? Why winning these days is too hard to reach? Why am I having doubts ever since I had my big loss? These questions rises for a reason that I’m worried and solutions couldn’t get through because of fear of losing out. Then I realized that much of life involves waiting and many wrong decisions are made because of impatience. 

6. Beer is nice. I have to take back the words I’ve said before to my friends back in college when I refused to drink at one or more times because then I don’t feel the pleasure of drinking. Yes you heard me say feel because it’s not that bland (too much ice) or strong (no more ice! Augh!) after taste you “savor” but it’s that company along with every glass you take. Catching up is now made comforting when a bottle of mucho is shared among friends and colleagues. So this year, I think I have to thank my colleagues for making me see the good in the bad in this case.

7. There's beauty in moving on. I started to see its beauty because I have failed in matters that draw me to cry, gone mad like a bitch and desperate at some points and looking through the memories in my mind, I’ve also seen myself happy before they fail me and having thought about it now, I realized I am still bound to commit mistakes down the line. But the good news is that there’s so much more to failures, I mean let’s be realistic it’s stressful but once you’ve seen the bigger picture and by that I mean you’re done thinking of the WHYs and now prepared to act on the HOWs. But of course before doing so I had to go through my distractions to at least keep me sane: First, I watch a series of latest Korean drama – this is a sure thing to alienate from everyone’s feels and even my own. Second, I go out shopping because I feel good when I dress good. Third, I blog as if I’m getting paid in sharing my worries to whoever who has same issues as mine. Fourth, I pray; go to the church where I grow and eventually pour my heart out and that’s my way of killing the blues and in return, embracing the odds.

8. I'm beautiful. At least I dared to believe that I am. Hahahaha! There’s this line I’ve heard from a contestant of The Voice of the Philippines Season 2 when she was asked how she is feeling, “They say you have to believe in your talent because it is God’s given gift so no matter what I have to be confident.” In this case, I’m talking about that beauty you see at first look. I for one is guilty in judging someone by just looking but that don’t really sum up the character of a person because what it describes is how shallow my personality is for believing what I just saw. I think this will not be too hard to absorb because I’ve seen some falling for this too that it’s not all about the looks that people really are looking for in a partner because truth is, what will make you stay until the end will be what’s skin deep, the mystery that kept you surprised over and over again. And so it made me thought of the reason why he left me just like that in mid-air when I know I’m for keeps, I may not be the typical but I know I’m special. Those were my sentiments but now I know now why it didn’t come to serious commitment because he failed to see that or he must have his own definition of beauty. And though I am confident with that beauty I have that is yet to be discovered by someone I’ll call Hon,  I just now want to let someone from the past know that it’s ok, I’m still beautiful I know because I made you look at me several times… 

9. Going into business is not an easy task. There’s no perfect path all the way up that’s may be why  the pressure comes off when I get into business six months ago and it turned out very promising to the point that I’m too broke to be spending these coming holidays with a holiday face. I have to loan and I need to sacrifice my spending such as supposed gift plans to uncles and aunties this Christmas; paying off my debt on my mobile plan; travelling solo in somewhere I can’t discuss yet all because I have to cover for the losses I made. But what is this mess without some lesson to teach me right? So I was able to be more prayerful; my words and statements being shared are more meant and well thought of because I don’t wish to hurt especially that I work with friends in this business I’m talking about. I fear less because I’ve come to know that I am already at risk and that fear will be no help so I always try to be composed when taking my turns. Plus, I came to know who my real friends are and that I don’t want to elaborate for now. Also I now know how to close a deal and really be holding responsible for it. It’s just that now it didn’t happen the way all three of us have imagined our first business venture would be like and so it made me earnest because I have been welcomed so well that I want to make a comeback in business with a plan, more foundation of guts and knowledge and a mind set to surprise no other than myself next year! YEAH!!!

Going into business is a dream and I never really imagined it to be this difficult since no business person planned of failing their business in the first place. So now I know that it becomes a problem if you take up the challenge without knowing to be fearful of it but you'll be fine as long as you know to be fearful of it beforehand. Then you won't make such a big mistake again. 

10. I'm an IRON MAN but not the hero type. This came to mind after watching Avengers and in there Captain America said this line to Iron Man, “You always find a way out.” And after hearing those words it felt like the Captain just talked to me, I mean ridiculed me! Remember my fandom over Iron Man? Yeah you most probably don’t. I’m a Marvel fan and I love Iron Man the most and this may be the reason why I find him appealing next to Loki, well who doesn’t! I think the connection is there because I always find him cool because he wears the coolest suit ever! And remember he has that biggest role in that movie! He redirects the missile to the tunnel where Loki’s army came from and viola! The movie ended and he just made the whole team realized why he always find his way out at every given situation and it’s not just to save himself but because that would mean he can still help and you don’t want to see your hope falling right?! So did I just make a point? HAHAHA What a joy to be able to share you that! HAHAHAHA

Anyway, going back to the real talk we’re having… just like Tony Stark I too always find myself to somewhere safe. Like if I have a chance where I always see opportunity to get away, I fly if I have to just to be free from stress and what I think hurts. Maybe that’s why I’ve been living independently for 3 years now, away from family drama and peer pressure of getting married or having a boyfriend real soon. But something you might actually don’t have an idea about that just like the man I adore I also care for the common good; I also wish for what you’re wishing for it’s just that I want to make it my way so if things fail I won’t be that someone who’ll feel betrayed in the end because I’ve been led on; I want to experience what you’ve been talking about so that I can fully understand the feeling of success or that failure we are all afraid of. I think I’ll be too afraid of seeing myself helpless so I’m equipping myself with hard earned experiences. And just like him, I want to be responsible for the many and to be able to do just that I have to be wealthy and to be a good role. I wish to be a promising person on this land too though you may think I’m not afraid at all like risking my whole wealth or life in general for the experience, I want to hold responsible for my own self.

11. When there’s pain, there’s shame. This I just felt recently, I’ve involved myself to some serious problem. The stress took me months then just a week ago I was able to take a deep breath for telling it to my family. It was not at all relief because the most stressful part indeed is facing it like an adult, compromising and it doesn’t suit me at all. I mean, the pain can leave you just right there in then but the shame would be so hard to brush off because I’ve caused some discomfort, inconvenience in a relationship that should not be tainted at all especially with money issues. Now, I am still battling with myself if I would have my genuine smile to face my family after that because more than the shame I also felt sorry for myself after the unexpected things happened. I may be stressing myself right now for thinking of not coming home this holiday but this must be one of my most serious problems ever experienced that I would dare not to see them just to free myself from thinking and I don’t know if I’ll have that peace around the people I’ve caused pain. I am not at all being myself for the white lies but that’s to protect something more important, relationships are. Hooooo I still don’t know where to go this Christmas because of this situation.

12. Travel far. Since late last year I have been to places that brought me so many memories but I never really traveled far because I was never that accustomed or left the place with experience that would take me forever to forget. Sorry to HK, Bangkok, SG and Malaysia because I just forgot the days I had on these amazing places when I stepped into my nampyeon’s country, South Korea. I mean that was Korea, everyone! The place where my biggest crushes like KIM HYUN JOONG, LEE MIN HO, Big Bang, 2PM, Song Jae Rim and all the cuties live! So what to do??!! I can’t manage not to be that amazed! I feel like I was in some drama episode shooting my “almost lost” scene while riding the subway; my most awaited cosmetic shop hopping in Myeondeong; the tongue out experience going up the stairs to see the famous dating site among dramas, Namsan Tower; the coffee shop hunting to K-Story (Hee-nim’s café); the everything yummy, spicy and expensive street foods in Insadong; the leaves falling and the pine trees breeze of autumn in Nami Island; my madness over thrift shopping in Ehwa University which is just a few steps from our cozy hostel; our first stop to Everland where I met Gwang Soo oppa (talking about GIRAFFE!) at the zoo and the hologram concert experience of BIG BANG and 2NE1 are really just daebak!; the places where my favorite dramas were shot like the famous palaces and all those Koreans who I feel like family in a far place because they just helped us out whenever we’re doubting our route, It is crazy I know because I’ve been there and not just in any kind of day, it was there Chuseok or Thanksgiving day so it was extra special seeing Seoul!!! So for sure I’ll be back with more money in my pocket and a credit card that would be very good exciting to use! So with my coat on I'll see you soon Korea! Jeju and Nami Island too!

13. You have to believe in the greater power. Definitely not that I’m an Atheist because I grew up in Christian faith but there are just times where I tend to forget about Him or leave it up to His mercy. Maybe because I can still can count on myself through my own efforts and that I don’t find it wrong not until I’ve seen myself helpless and that I can only call for His help. Sure, I believe in some element of circumstantial luck, but there has to be something more and that you have to be grateful for.

It started off when my good friend, Dean invited me to come with him and meet Bro. Bo of The Feast PICC and since then I know for sure I’ll grow. I was already into forex that time and thought this is the perfect time to finally attend. A part of the reason for coming is because I was seeking His guidance that time and just my luck, the talk was about my worries then it just gets through me each series. After that I’ve been inviting friends to come and though at most times I don’t have companion going to “the happiest place on Earth” still I never felt alone. No holds barred in singing and dancing. The joy of meeting Him on Sundays is overflowing that no matter how far or how bad the weather is I can now count on myself and still be there. He called for my name so I must follow and I believe I am again going to meet Him today because it’s Sunday. I don’t have sleep yet since 10pm but I know later I’ll rejoice for His name and again be lifted high!

14. It is important to stay humble. There are lessons in life that needs to be relearned and part of those is keeping your feet on the ground. I believe staying humble or grounded comes with the feeling of security within your own self which implies you’re someone who knows exactly what you want, how you feel, what you can do without sounding off or boastful - that if you waver or couldn't justify your own reasons then you’re probably unsure of that life changing decision or simply how you act. There may be you have to be listening to others advice.

15. Plan your day. I used to have no plans for the future that’s why I thought back then that I just do things I wish based on my mood swings. True enough that when I was in college I only wish to finish it in four years’ time. Afterwards I looked for work with no particular job in mind so I just applied randomly so I got jobs in random fields as well. That’s why making plans or day to day goals are important. Because no matter what skills or talents ones have you’ll still need some guide to keep you going. Like my ultimate goal becoming happy and successful. And as I list down my goals (a.k.a. bucket list) in no particular order it made me realize I should make it realistic so I rearranged them then adapt the lessons I’ve learned thru my financial gurus and life coaches (you should have one!) such as my older sister, parents, some friends, my Midas coaches and from reliable motivational blogs... and it all led me to measure my idea of success. So I went back to my goal and reevaluate what successful and happy means to me because this I know can be ever changing through time. Like today, happiness and success would mean spending the day at work without thinking of stress in my forex; I had my coffee shake on my way to the office thus I become energize and resulted to smooth sailing operations at work. Also I sent out my dirty clothes to the laundry shop and took time to wash my two day old spoiled undies. WAHAHHAHA!

Anyway, I had a recent post about my plans and I’m now starting to surround myself in achieving success and happiness to achieve that list.   

16. Learn when to stop. My current state as a forex trader made me realize this that there should be some extent in attaining a certain goal. I think this is a learning someone has to accept most especially if you’re as stubborn as me. There’s some sort of momentum we call in almost all that moves and lives around the sun. We have that glory days in trading; prime age in this life and climax in every storyline; peak in every seasons. In short, live in those moments and learn to understand that not all things work by just trusting yourself because I believe, there's always an end in everything that lives and works. So make use of the moments filling out the inevitable declining stage with wisdom, may be some new hobbies, value adding tasks, invest in the lost times with family and friends and just relax... That's what I'm doing now~ because I know now that I can't be all the things I wish for me to be. 

Sunday, November 9, 2014


@fatimapalma after watching your video rapping for your patient, it made me think of my own profession. I work for an offshore bank and now thinking of moving to another to earn for more. Before knowing your story, I've been thinking that I'm being underpaid considering how other companies can offer for my role. Also with my diverse course I took in college, I can just shift from one field to another. And after knowing the sacrifices you make to getting your job it made me realize how difficult it must be to take that others are getting paid for jobs that can be learned or practiced without the need for licence. And when I feel like demotivated, I can just text my boss and say I'll take my leave even if it's on the day or fake it as if I got a bad cold which I doubt if nurses also make that excuse considering your nosy head nurse planning your shifting schedules. And whenever I feel like lazing around, I just tell myself that this isn't my money at stake so I can less care with near deadlines requests but with your work, you don't have the choice but to give them their meds on time, to make time when you're already multi tasking yourself; to be responsible for so many people's lives in the ward. In short, there's no room for mistakes or else we know what might happen. 

Now, I came to a realization that whatever your profession is you should be making sure you're doing it the right way because someone might feel overworked or underpaid with what you're behaving at work. I have a close friend who is also a nurse at a local hospital and I always rant on him about my work but he never really rants about his actually. We go to same church and I appreciate how he makes time to praise with his ever changing off.

I salute you Fatima; my good friends, Dean and Sheela; my Aunt Joy in Saudi and Aunt Minnie in London and many other nurses working passionately for their vocation! I am in awe of people who knows how to give value to their bread and butter that I might be looking for a rewarding sideline now because of this eye opening story! Our government might also want to change these nurses perspectives of working abroad because of salary issues so they may prefer working here instead and that no more big sacrifices be at made just by following the field they chose. But as much as we want you staying here we can't judge of those who left because we know aside from your proffession you take oath on you also have your own families to feed, to raise and to live. We also wants best for you and we do appreciate your help. To God be the glory! 

Monday, October 6, 2014

Before "I do"

I've been thinking lately about my ultimate dream and the reasons why it seems so unreachable. 

And so I'm letting my brain bleed just for once, trying to be vulnerable, dropping off my guards all to think of the reasons why 3 years ago I started blogging. I need some convincing advise, something I'm clueless about or something hard for me to accept... My difficulties, my issues why I always find myself moving on and on. 

Disclaimer: This is an inspired tell all post after watching Korean drama, #ItsOkayThatsLove.

1. You're nice, cool, witty and smart but not just that beautiful. You know how annoying this feels to admit since I know for a fact that I have flaws like everybody else so can we just work on what's presently GOOD! 

(While changing the topic, Michelle Phan suddenly popped out of the window!)

You better stop there mah sister before you regard yourself the pitiful lead in your own drama! You know what? You've said some good traits you have and I know they were not your inborn talents or traits, personality in the first place does not come through genes, transplant, copy paste or any science. You know what I mean. Define your big eyes, paint those full lips, cover the blemishes and keep your double chins up. And you'll see a satisfied smile that you took time in improving yourself. Remember how you got your banking job last year? It will be as fullfilling if you try something you've never tried before. 

2. I'm too comfortable being myself, alone. I know this sounds just right but when I say, comfortable it means I have the tendency to isolate myself whenever I just feel like it. This started when I discovered that as long as I do just right (according to my own standards) then I can leave things unecessary behind. 

(Then Alex Gonzaga made her entrance while dancing to Beyonce moves~) 

Hmmmn... You know you're cruel! You should be sharing that comforts you find entertaining alone with your potential husband! Way to go dear if you'll just be hanging around  on your bed while talking to yourself or watching the latest episode of your now favorite korean drama! Grow up! You've been doing that for nearly 10 years!!! You better act now or waste another day or another decade doing that same old things you enjoy since you were thirteen! You know it's getting serious that you see it as an escape to your stress at work, to your unfinished businesses and your for real business. It's time you shift an old habit to productive ones, where you can also be feeling the same comforts when you're hanging out by yourself. Like go enroll to a gym! You're not the type who will flirt with hunk men but at least there you will be exposed as you get fit and improve your still hesitant self! Just maybe some man from the gym is also keeping up with his new found habit, exercise on a leisure hours. Find time sharing yourself to the world! 

3. Siiiiiiighs! He's making that same entrance again into my vulnerable heart. He's making a comeback into my work station and so in my fantasies when I'm at the state of forgetting him as someone who once made me feel special. I wish and I pray that he is the one and that this is just some part of our story, making up for the reasons why soon this relationship will be unbreakable and will lead to that "I do~" But because I tend to panic at the idea of dating, trust issues... I'm once again afraid to try. 

(Wooohhh Did just Jang Jae Yeol oppa told me this piece of advise?!!!)

Arraseo-yo oppa! I'll practice to be free at heart! 

4. Believe that you will! Now, trying to gain the courage to move on. Not because it was a painful experience but because I was left behind with regrets by not fully giving in to what my heart then feels. I want to bring back myself with the learned lessons of the past for I sincerely love to love. Though needless to say all episodes now of every drama I watch, it made me think of him. It feels unfair to be left behind but that's for sure, part of the big plan.

(I'm more convinced with this heads up!)

5. Once and for all, feel it. I never once deeply sympathized with other's pain, I did say it must have been hard but it was all just plain words. Since I thought of others problems like how I deal with mine like, "you are strong and free you will soon overcome this" but thinking now that I'm also struggling understanding my own circumstance, I have ignored others situation and I simply think, "it's your own problem", "you have to deal with it on your own" and forgot the very essence of why they are sharing something personal. 

6. By using my defenses, I sabotage my own happiness. I doubt a lot and regard a person who has the potential feelings as someone who will take advantage of me or will soon find me replaceable. :((( Because of this, I stop myself from being too kilig over the gestures of a potential boyfie because of my own random thoughts! Like I don't know already if I'm assuming or I'm too control freak?!? Is there some thin line I'm not aware of between the two???? 

(And so Jo Dong Min ajussi came to nag me...)

"What is the thing you want to protect? The anxiety disorder that you want to get rid of forever?" 

I think I have serious case of selfishness out of hardly finding love. I know I have my family and friends but if we'll break it down, my mom has my dad; my sister has my brother-in-law; my bestfriends who are always behind me stays to be the same and soon will find company too... Oooohhh this is light bulb! I focus too much on myself because I'm afraid to be left out again! And that I don't know yet what love can do and because I don't know I think tooooooooo muuuuuuuuuch!!! Gotchhhaaaa!!! I am my own problem!

7. I'm sporting the positivity but everytime chance comes by, I back off. It's hard to see that someone might actually be the right one~ That's why I want to be understood by none other than myself before saying I'm in but I think understanding oneself is an overrated term so the very least I can do is most probably just accept the person that I was, I am and I will be!!! Strength pa!!! 

And so the next thing I want to do is fall in love for the rest of my life! I want a beautiful love story like Jang Jae Yeol ❤️ Ji Hae Soo. A mature love! They are two individuals who have passed the common cause of break up, third party. Who have gained enough pain to not be wasting time with wrong partners. The number of exes they had is not even a guarantee to say they have learned or have loved the right way because they're just like anyone whose unsure of the next things to come. So when I get to meet my Jae Yeol, I'll make sure to fall in love! But if he's not yet the one then it's okay, that's (still) love! 

In love,
Miss Piggy ❤️.❤️

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

For the UNprepared Backpacker,

I’ll tell you something you probably know but almost missed to remember on and/or before your planned trip.

These are the things I learned from travelling overseas:

1. Get a good value for your pocket money. You don’t need to know the fundamentals of the foreign currency you want to exchange your money into but the tip is to have a benchmark among the rates of money exchange stalls and banks in your area before going straight to the airport. Because it's a big NO to have your money changed in airports since they make business out of tourists who probably don’t know THIS!

First thing’s first, know the present exchange rate of your money to USD via google or an app on your phone then do the same with USD to the ccy of the country you’ll be visiting, let’s say KRW. Once you have it keep your notes on your phone and make the ideal rates. See below.

As of 09/12/14:
43.95 PHP = 1USD = 1038.25KRW
So if you’re exchanging your base ccy (PHP) to USD, you’re Buying USD so you should get the LOWEST price possible. And if you’re selling your USD back to peso, you should get the HIGHEST price  possible.

Tip: In Korea, you're entitled a tax refund for every minimum single receipts of 50,000 krw!!! You can have your receipts scanned along with your foreign passport in their auto banks and airports so you can save the guilt of shopping since you'll get your 3,500 won back! Isn't it amazing?!?!! 

2. Print out discount coupons. Yes, you read it right! In some countries like Korea and Singapore they give discounts to foreign tourists about 10% to 50% discounts on entrance fees to tourist destinations down to cosmetic products! So print them and make multiple copies and give it out to your unprepared trip buddies.

3. DISABLE. Soon as you were advised by the Flight Attendant to turn off phones and gadgets, do so to keep you from possible charges. Turn off the data roaming of your phone when web browsing and using email, MMS, and other data services. Better yet put your phone in Airplane Mode when you're not wifi connected so it is just as good as a camera, ipod and a calculator in one. 

4. Round Off. When going for a shop best way is to have your mental math do the work for you than relying through your phone’s calculator or bugging your travel buddy for the conversion.

So you’re buying a Missha BB cream which cost 16,800KRW…

To arrive with the value in peso you have two options:

Option1: Ignore the insignificant zeros then round off to whole number then multiply with the rate of your usd in PHP thus we get the cost:
17Krw*44Php = 748Php (estimated cost)
16.8Krw * 43.95Php = 739.36PHP (actual cost)

Option2: Divide amount to the rate of KRW to PHP:
(1038.25krw/usd) / (43.95php/usd)= 23.62 or 24Php/Krw
So if you're way good in division do this:
16,800krw / 24php/krw = 700PHP 

Note: As an employee who works in a Bank doing Forex settlements, Option2 is indeed the right way to convert but since I'm promoting mental math and convenience here, I recommend the use of Option1. But you can always borrow the calculator on the desk of the cashier (if there's any) whenever you're buying in a foreign country.

5. Play your part. I always been the traveler who doesn't care if I get lost during a trip to a foreign city or country but since we have travel buddies who doesn't want or even can't imagine that happening so they make sure everything's well taken care of. There you'll find yourself leaning on to them for directions but since that could be too much to take that's when you make yourself useful, be the interactive buddy who ask around among locals when things get tough like you get lost finding the way to exit the subway station or probably you all are doubting the instructions you found in the internet. That's one smooth operation to make your presence felt during a trip. So gear up because you'll need more body language than your English.

6. Bargain. This should always be a practice when travelling in a foreign country because they will definitely make money out of you base from your foreign looks. So make yourself accustomed to their language as if you know or you just pronounced them correctly because you'll definitely get their reaction right away and give you a smile or a big laugh because of your awkward tricks to ask for a discount! 

I tell you this should be studied just like their formal greetings because remember it's the thought that counts. Your efforts will pay off once you memorize these phrases to live by during your stay: 

in Hangul/Korean: 

How much is it? – ol-ma-ye-yo?

Give me a discount – Kka-kka-ju-se-yo~

In Thai: 

Can you please give me discount? - Lot hai dai mai kha?

7. Bring an extension wire ALWAYS. Whenever we travel we always pay for the use of adapter since most of the times the socket and plugs are different from what we use. So be it three holes or four or round or square you have to prepare for the worst. Because you don't like your smart phone dying right?

8. No to excess bags. Weigh your baggage before checking in so you can manage where to stuff the excess. Better if you have your eco bags with you in case your back pack is already full.

9. On Time for Departure. This will be the saddest part of the itinerary, last day, bidding goodbye so don't make it tough anymore by rushing to the airport or worst be left by your promo fare plane ticket. Allot time when you travel back to the airport, when checking in your luggage, having your passport stamped by Immigration officer and photo ops inside the airport.


In love,
Miss Piggy ❤️

10 Things I want to do at the age of 50:

1. Drink beer while waiting for my trade to TP. It was a sudden picture I've seen while I am working at my station, executing an fx request then as I checked the graph of XAU/USD on the other tab of my window there I grabbed my mountain dew drink contained in its long neck bottle. Thus I was able to imagine things to happen when I’m not working anymore and probably just having a good time while the money is working for me. Yay!

2. Refreshed. Go out early in the morning for a walk with my sneakers on as I take a detour through the park near my area while sipping my coffee as I return home.

3. Drive. I think I have nothing to be afraid of by that time and age so I'll have my car for grocery or as we (yes, with my hubby) visit our kids (yes they're now some place working) on holidays for a get together or to work on some errands. And that would be close enough to 2015 Hyundai Tucson!

4. Blog. I still wish to share my stories here. I hope this won't get outdated before I leave you my ashes, Earth.

5. Make LOVE. Oh yeah!!! Love is always something to celebrate! I wish for a marriage that is not troubled by disloyalty. I claim to work on a marriage with love and friendship as its foundation that no man alive can ever break!!! And that the only reason it may lead to disaster is because of our tempers. Just that!!!

But that won't happen to us, and we got no doubt. Too deep in love, and we got no way out. We start and end as one. In love forever... We can ride it together, uh huh~ Makin' love with each other, uh huh. (Credit goes to kenny-rogers-islands-in-the-stream uh huh!)

6. Build a community. I don't know yet for what exact reason why I want this to be realized but I think I am able and prepared by then to share my blessings and to lead by example. I'm pretty sure it will be about business affairs where it's too hard to trust someone with finances but I would like to come up with people who are humble enough to build friendship among business partners and potential connections. This will aim to promote good and effective business discipline so as to encourage young entrepreneurs to always never give up too easily on their dreams to succeed. Because there will always be people behind their backs or on their side guiding them how. And I just thought of the answer to my confusion in the beginning of this hopeful attempt. To that I think I can make it happen!

7. Cook. I get the realization that whenever I prepare food even that is for myself I always feel like my appetite is going down or completely gone. So to make it worthwhile, I might as well cook for my family and diet at the same time. But I can only wish that by 50 I already came along way on my cooking skills.

8. Travel. This can't be ignored unless there is an asset to be procured or still need to be paid. I wish to go back to Bangkok or Myeongdong to enjoy shopping with my kids and friends and have some cozy time just like the old days with my backpack on during my 20s'.

9. Sunday is reserved. This should definitely be a non-conditional habit on Sundays that I wish my kids will adapt as well just like how my grandparents and my parents made us realize that no matter how distant you maybe from your family, you should always find a place where there is God because that's the best way to honor Him and your parents'.

10. Profitable business. I'm thinking of an hostel for backpackers where I will be offering "sulit" and pinoy style accommodation to foreigners and local tourists. It has two floors with a cute house at the roof top (I'm ok living there!), the common area will be in the ground floor's backyard with hammocks tied on the opposite corners of the open "bahay kubo" where the big flat screen tv is located.There'll be two big trees shading the rocking chairs and benches. The dirty Kitchen where they can cook their own meals is located as well in the kubo and the one that is clean has the same amenities only that it doesn't have a chimney to direct the smoke of the grilling meat. The room has its own CR and AC. On the 1st floor of the bldg is the information area where there you'll find the coolest CEO (that's me!) looking at the two monitors, one with the xau/usd chart and the other has the guesthouse's home page opened as I answer FAQs by potential guests. Aside from the business itself, I also buy and sell USD, KRW and SGD to Peso so foreigners can save time going to banks or some money exchange stalls outside.The concept of the bldg will be artsy and homey that they just want to extend their stay because of the mark that they can leave soon as they checked out, they can post notes or have their palm marked on the vandal walls of the reception area. Plus, Geum Jan Di or Korean style bikes are available for rent for those who wants to stroll the city anytime of the day. Up top of the bldg is where the guests can feel the breeze as they lay on to the hammocks and on the elevated ground made out of wood, ideal for siesta! Omo! I can already picture myself planning for it!!!  Waaaaaaaaaahhh!!! I just made plans for my future, baby! 

In love,
Miss Piggy ❤️

10 Things I neglect but really are important:

1. Know how to read analog clock. This has been already decided back in my childhood years where my father used to challenge us how to read wall clocks in our house and almost everywhere but I simply didn't get it as fast as my elder sister and brother. So I moved on and learned that there is what they call digital clock! Right now, I owned my first legit digi watch from Timex. It has everything I need to know about time... No more or never relied on used to be for fashion sakes analog clock on my wrist before. You asked why I have it before? Well, my parents didn't get the memo that their second daughter can't read them really so they bought me watch and I don't care if it's running or what. Because seriously I can die without knowing how to use it. I've lived just fine not until I was recently asked by my father and my two crazy siblings laughed at that very moment because they know I'll probably just guess it's quarter to this number base from the sky's above. wahahaha! 

2. Try again to swallow solid medicines. If my father taught me to read the analog clock (I'm thick-faced if I'll say I've learned), my mom on the other hand diligently taught me how to swallow my meds even not on time but at the very least can swallow them because they're just too costly enough. Again, I never learned how though it's been put inside a gelatine, banana and that she begged to make me swallow them still it didn't happened her ways. So my remedy goes like this... first, pound them then have them mixed with my pineapple juice or now that I'm making money, I buy the more expensive ones for cough and colds (usual illness) that dissolves on its own when dropped into a cold water (yes cold!) and it tastes like Mountain dew, my favorite soda! But then I know there'll be events that will push me to swallow them naturally like how inevitable it is to get sick these days.

3. Buy my own undies. I know its significance since these are something I can't live without but these just never been the priority when going out for a shopping. I certainly need some new set of cover ups but I can't have the time to look for underwears that will be hidden anyway. I can only wish someone can buy them (in a dozen please) for me.

4. Come to work before time. Fine! I love my job and I'm good at it so I have this thought that being good can compensate my tardiness. 

5. Submit my outputs/prod. We have this system at work called BPAL it is where we input the number of FX we've booked at the end of the day and I only tried doing this when it was first implemented, last November 2013. This will seem like an excuse but I have better things to do in my idle time than log them. But good thing my teammates are not following my footsteps!

6. Say the appropriate words at the right time. It's no longer new to some people who knows me that I'm random but something has been added this time, I'm now spitting out bad words! And even folding my fingers for them (provoking being) to get what I'm saying. Like I gave this people a laugh everytime I did those 

but I felt bad recently when my office buddy, Haidee told me to stop since she's afraid what other people would think of me if they see me acting like a douche in the office. Then I thought to myself "Isn't this what you guys are doing?"; "Oh some potential boyfriend might freaked out!" So I decided to change and even slap my own hands if ever I just did it. 

7. Call my parents often. I do once a month and in most cases I just make sure I'll give them good news like I got promoted (which didn't happened), I received a commendation from my boss (like it matters to me) but trying to place myself on the shoes of my parents' I think I'm just being proud and rude at the same time. I've realized, if ever I get into an age where I have kids living away from my premises I would also love to pick up my phone for casual talks as if they're just close. At least to make up for the distance and all but the problem is, my parents' are just as cool as I am. They don't answer calls right away or they won't call unless I call. Waaaaaaahhhh! It runs in the blood but I'll try make an effort this time. I'll call my mom tomorrow and say, "MA! I just had rashes all over my body last night but it's not even true! I just really felt lazy and demotivated to come to work with my face swollen because of tiny pimples on my forehead." I think I know what I'm asking for... scolding!

8. Sleep when feel like sleeping. Because of my Forex I already forgot my sense of habit in sleeping. Ok ok... I never really had that habit to actually sleep like most people sleeps considering my graveyard schedule at work and "bantay graph" schedule in the afternoon on weekdays that I still able to fight my sleepy head. 

Sometimes, I wish to have insomnia but it is just to be used as an excuse why I'm having circles around my eyes, pimples on my cheeks, achy back every now and then... I'm just so bad in taking care of myself so I'm hinting to you Lord a gift for me that instant formula to make me sleep and bloom at the same time! hihihihi please!!! 

9. Accomplish a project without rush. No time denying this absolute fact because I'm in a rush! 

10. Just DATE. Get to know someone whom I don't feel has the chance for me to date is pretty much a good start. And I just can't agree with what I just typed in. Really, dating freaks me out but I definitely have to date! You're asking if how difficult it is for me? I am simply not that confident with how I am when alone with a guy. I do think it requires some preparation like I need to be desperate enough to "just" date! It's awkward already so I wish to make it as casual as possible but making it casual seems like he just dated a bro and not a potential partner. So that's how I complicate my affairs! I need the other person's effort show to get to "accept" the awesomely weird specie that I am so I can loosen up and you know without thinking back and forth to just jump in! 

In love,
Miss Piggy ❤️

Sunday, July 6, 2014

To Jimboy.

To my only brother whom I can always count on for favors without asking something in return because in the family, I'm that person. ---.----\/ I'm writing to you this letter because I remembered the times you always give in because of my silly intentions. I'm teary eyed right now just so you know since I'm hardly there for you when i know you could have needed my help too. I'm sorry for the bad memories we had particularly the times I under estimated your abilities. The times I ignored your fever and didn't even care to give you food when you're in pain. Those times I abused my power as 11 months older than you that I even made your project with pictures smaller so to save money for the printing fee and my project to be well taken of because I'm the one using the pc rental back in grade school. I am very sorry for ruining your project. If I had known my selfish self before I could have corrected my bad habits since then. I'm feeling guilty just now. It took me 20 years to know my faults back in our home in San Felipe. I'm sorry for always doubting you. I admit I always been insecure because I was the least favorite kid so just to step up a little I've done such...

But everything is ok now between us. I am very lucky to have you as my little brother. You're a sensitive person who can cry at the touching stories and someone who crack jokes naturally. I am proud even that you really are an inspiration because of your consistency to show your care for family affairs and that's really some plus to your sincere character. Anyway, congratulations to your success at work. You just got promoted and we were all surprised by that aside from your American accent. May our good Lord keep blessing you all the time! And now that you have a family of your own, may you continue to be just as loving as you were to us to your wife and son, Jello.

Ate Misis is always here ready to back you up! I love you Jimboy! Let's make our parents feel more proud and blessed by the values and love for the things we already have. 

Your bad turned good sister,

Ate Misil. 

Saturday, July 5, 2014

Why need to suffer for love?

Why me?!? This has been my regretful question as I've come to realize I was completely fooled by love or whatever strange feeling that was. And so, before I continue I just think I have to say sorry for  what I'll be saying... I'm going to regret this for sure in the future but more of the petty side because I'll laugh about this soon. So there, I wish them good luck and hopefully I won't be seeing signs of them in our bldg. anymore! Like please just evaporate so I can live in peace again! They're just an eye sore and I'm not just saying this because I'm irritated by the thought they're two flirts flirting with each other and I just can't help not to be annoyed because just by the looks of it they are perfect earthlings binded by lustful intentions. Hooo~ I don't usually get irritated that easily but due to inevitable circumstances such this case then I'll just claim the right to be upset and be the bitter one in the story! Anyway, I will start not to care and decide  to move on... until signs of them won't be  a problem anymore. I'll leave them both behind my back that they can't even try to get near me ever! So bye and see me soon from a far when I give you a look behind my back. bwahahaha!

And this will be the last time I'll succumbed to your disgust! Pwe! 

Monday, April 21, 2014

New Friend Added

Happy Easter everyone! God has risen so I think I deserve some exclusive time with him before today ends. I am convinced that you will never leave me no matter what the world throws on me and so I’m pushing my hesitant self to open up and really put it in words.

Remember that guy Lord at work? He has a girlfriend now.

I know. I should just distant myself and I am still trying to do what exactly a friend should do. But can I just be honest and say how it really feels to be left by someone whom I thought could be the one? It happened so fast for them that I can only find myself hanged in the moment. I thought he’ll pursue me till we finally see it coming. Till I get tired of giving him the wrong signals. Until he gets sick of the casual talk… Until we realized what we have is love.

I once again blew the chance. And all I have gained is an unfinished business since we never had that real talk about us. I knew there’s something about your guilty gaze on me. I was just being cool but my disappointed self still reigns like how could you deliberately smile and tease me for four months when I was never the girl you like in the first place! This I know sounds bitter but I wish this will be the last time I’ll bring this up.

It upsets me that you fell for a cliché girl like everybody does. And it makes me sick thinking about the times I’ve doubted your sincerity and only to find out you were never that into me and that some find me delusional for even having the thoughts about us. I’m sorry for being this honest but this is just the first time my heart got broken by a guy who made me believe that he can save me from being alone on every occasion. You certainly broken every fantasy I had for us when you text me about it and not even finding a place in your brain that I am most probably be hurting deep down. Silly me, I even gave an advice to a friend that whatever mistake someone committed on you; you should always go with the side where there is hope for happiness, change and chances – thinking of you as an example before breaking me the news three weeks ago. I for one don’t easily give up on someone but the world taught me a lesson to let go of the person I once poured my heart into because I can’t be always falling for the wrong guy.

Funny it may seems but we had moments these days that we’re very careful with how people sees us. We’re like hiding something fishy every time we bump into each other. I’m not sure with soon events but for now I choose to forgive even if I hear no sorry. I’m not saying you’re the wrong alone here but why it has to be me? Why do I have to see you five times a week?!? I’ve been there and I hate going back and forth. I’ve shared enough for you to be extra careful but still you made history repeat.

There’s a lot of maybes’ again. Thinking now about the times we were there for each other- I still believe you came to prepare me for dating. You made me experience how it feels to be a lady next to a man whenever you visit me on 6’oclock habit. I’m such a kid myself so I call it quits. I now can only reminisce such times I give silly updates to friends about our progress; the unconventional time of your calls and texts; you letting me borrow your HD with updated episodes and songs in it, you surprised me with your taste in movies, music and that you also watch Korean dramas and you’re willing to watch my recommended series and you’ll download some for me though I know it may not be happening at all. You allowed me to get to know your whole family and bit of your story… you’re the most affected whenever you hear someone from my team disrespects me. You started to give me lessons on how things should be done; we even have bets and we also lend each other’s money at times. We even had plans of going on trip, that you’ll make up for my ruined valentine’s day because you were shy handing me toblerone because you know above all else that I discourage grand gestures that may result to making it such a big deal and I’ve realized I’ve missed the whole point of falling in love. I was never real to you 100%.

And though at some points you make my heart gone mad we managed to remain friends. I don’t know but like my advice to a friend, I choose where there’s more chance for happy endings. Some may see me naive for being cool and not cold to this guy but I have enough reasons to regard him as a friend. Plus, you don’t end friendships you just naturally being their old friend because of their new ones in their respective stages of life. I’ll give you the benefit of doubt because that’s what we are anyway so there will only be time to forgive because I hate regrets keep piling up. You make me all puzzled every time pal so I’ll make it easy for me too and let go of the butterflies in my stomach each time I see you until it will be some just friendship.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Dad! Where Are We Going?

Probably the only show I watch  without fail these days is “Dad! Where Are We Going?" a reality show that takes celebrity dads and their kids on an overnight camping trip...with no moms.

Now on their Season2!!! 

I watch whenever I feel like I need some intervention which came to this realization, that even though kids still have a lot to learn, just observing them can teach us many practical life lessons. There's brilliance in their simplicity. 

1. Girls love skinship the most with their parents. They feel secured and loved whenever their next to them.
2. Whereas little boys find their dads the coolest when they're playing with them. And playing would mean involving droplets of sweat!
3. Given more chance, kids these days also enjoy the company of nature and playing on the streets
4. At their early age, care to listen to their random talks because they have depth too.
5. Just like in the eyes of many, PDA among parents can be a trivial thing to your kids. Make it discreet so you won't be one in their random topics among friends or in your family gatherings.
6. Reading them books before lights off is  a good habit. It is also a preparatory for their schooling.
7. Let them experience house chores and make it a practice so they can have sense of responsibilty in and out the four corners of your home.
8. Keep your cool yow parents and same goes to their siblings. There'll be momentary tantrums and you know it will just pass in minutes so don't utter a word you might regret. 
9. Not like before, in raising good and happy kids make use of positive gestures and affirmations. You will not only build good relationship, you'll also empower their self esteem. 
10. Say I LOVE YOU. 
11. Engage them to lessons during summer so you can achieve the kid's full potential.
12. It's just right to be grateful so PRAY with them before bed time.
13. Appreciate the little details in their childhood for it will be short and you'll surely miss the fun times. Awww~ 

Plus, parents who tease their kids about their crushes are real cool parents!!! Woohooo! Also now, I am more convinced that every lesson they repeatedly embedded in our brains and restrictions they set – that all served a purpose. I didn't know that when I was little (yes! It did happen!) that's why I am still positive about this world's future! 😎 We can raise happy and good kids like what our parents did.

I'm the stage noona! I tweet like crazy and do screencaps of their innocent and sincere gestures~ See for yourself and get smitten by these kids!

This is Actor Lee Jang Hyuk's son, Junsu. The 5 yr old kid whom you'll find surprising each time. Always smiling and happy neh adeul, Junsu yah! 

The new leader of Season2 kids, Yoon Hoo! He's tung-tungeh like that but he's such an angel with maturity and listens very well to his cool appa, singer Yoon Minsoo "oppa". haha

His singer dad teach him in a very conventional and effective way to memorize stuff. I want to copy this trick too when I have to teach my soon kids in their stage plays or assignments~ yeeee!!!

Here's Scholar Song Jun. He's the ideal son, oppa, hyung and son-in-law you'll wish to have! This kid is the responsible first born of veteran Actor Song Dong Il. And there's Song Bin the brave kid of Season2! You'll see her dad in the way she fools around. That's for sure! 

The link has a sub so non-koreans can also watch! (I highly recommend if you need a good laugh and a good time), you'll spot some differences/likeness from the 5 yr olds of today and the 5 yr old you back in the day~

#BecauseIwillAlwaysBeADaddysGirl #BlackSaturday #ReflectionPaper  

Monday, March 24, 2014

Wrap Up!

Disclaimer: This has been my write up for my MBA grad and I did it too personal! When my mentor told me to write about my greatest failure and biggest learning I have written without a doubt my life's when it's supposed to be about the whole trading experience~ so I'm sharing just again one of the minor glitches that happened last March 22, 2014 on my grad day! Yey! I'm not actually excited. That's the truth why my hair down below is not looking so tidy and my dress I just bought it 40 minutes before coming late for that most awaited day again. But I really am honored graduating first in my batch! Yoohooo!!! Say Hello to me, the unexpectant graduate! 

Jerma Maezelle N. Ilarde

Occupation: Financial Specialist – State Street Bank HCL Services

I think mine was not graduating in college with laude when most of my friends are in the honor roll. Looking back, I could have done better memorizing stuff and of course not flanking College Algebra in my first semester as Accountancy major. My first year in college was pretty much the most dreadful experience in my life. Particularly after knowing that getting an F would mean no chance at all for honors in the most awaited graduation. I was just not happy with the course and back then I honestly just can’t keep up with expectations. What followed was a number of months of straight up confusion that almost snatched my scholarship along the way. And so the self-questioning was nonstop. What went wrong? What did I just do?

 Eventually I was able to take a step back and realize it’s just a matter of making smart choices. I’ve practiced to loosen up bit by bit and the first thing I did to get rid of the bad memory was to retake Algebra and shift to Business Engineering.  I just had a lot of explaining engagements then because of my first flunk in the history but not with friends since I was anxious enough that they’re all part of the “list” and in fear for them to find out that I was way behind. Making the story short, I received an A for my second take. I started to love again math and certain that it loved me back, I am proud to receive a perfect score in my Engineering Economy midterm exam for the whole batch (I’m sorry for being too specific but I can’t help not to feel the pride. LOL). And become a VP for two terms in our co-curricular org; I also happened to be an accidental football player and so I couldn’t trade my life to anyone without that flunk. I am blessed to experience such turning point early in life and I completely understood now why it has to be my greatest failure so far.

My greatest learning would be to give every undertaking a time. I’ve realized that “time” is what keeping me sane and that the benefit of a sudden dilemma is the ability to accept unwelcomed thoughts. Be it as routinely as I can’t have my lunch break on time because of loads of work and being the rational human being that we can be, I’ll choose to work and delay my cravings even that would mean I might not have the appetite later or no more break at all during the whole shift. The process prepared me to reach a mind-set which both my heart and mind approves and that still surprises me every time I choose to do what I have to do. Eventually all things fall into place. Until then, laugh at the confusion and think that everything happens for a reason. So whatever that worries me, I just give it time - for this too shall pass! 

...Ok! Enough with the mistake! Good thing I didn't do it while doing my thesis. Hoooo~~~ So this latter space, I give you my actual learnings... failures before my thesis got approved!

1. First, that when you decide to wait bear in mind that you're waiting for strats to be realized and not your pride to be satisfied. (wrote this in my journal last 02/11/14)

2. Stick to your strats! Modified strat3 most especially! 

3. Don't rush.

4. Sleep when you fon't feel like trading. Have a balanced life.

5. Don't depend on the people in the chatroom!!! Please calm down you people!!! 

6. Wag pa'pressure when they say you should be buying at this point when you still have a sell in place! Wooohhh~  

7. PRAY! I did follow the strats but it didn't go down the way I expect it to happen~ Thus, all you need is a good listener and at some point a miracle from Him.

8. It's ok not to trade daily or too often.

9. Trade on your free time and that's before going to sleep at around 6-10 am MNL time. I don't know! But I happened to get comfortable trading at these hours when they say it is unadvisable practice to take profit in the morning. 

10. Never stop learning! Always be at your best Zel!

11. And... Fear only Him because you already stepped in your best foot!